I cant remember a time when I felt truly happy. I find myself smiling all the time, its really started to freak me out. Maybe its the friends ive reconnected with again, maybe its the boyfriend that I finaly feel free from, maybe Im just happy? Who knows, but I want this to stay. I love that I can do what ever I want whenever I want. Glass of wine in the middle of the day? Sure, why not half the bottle!
Go out dancing on a Wednesday night? Of course! Its nice to live life for yourself. For the longest time I was living everyone else's live and It sucked. Now it feels great saying NO to people. I answer my phone only when I feel like talking and if I want to stay in on a friday night- I do.
With my ADD, this may all change next week but for now I'm loving life. fully.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
100 Things
A fellow blogger wrote '100 Things That Make Me Happy' on her blog. When I read it, I found myself simultaneously thinking "There's no way I could come up with 100 things" and coming up with my things I would write down. I thought I'd give it a try... lets see how far I get.
1. My family
2. The smell of summer
3. George Lopez
4. Cold bed sheets
5. crawling into bed at night
6. my computer
7. my upright fan
8. going to a movie
9. Larry King live
10. my red couch
11.Kirkland Vitarain water
12. being single
13. my iphone
14. pictures of my parents
15. getting a phone call/text from Aaron
16. Ikea picture frames
17. remote controls
18. Pears
19. Popcorn
20. my Elantra
21. Margaritas in the summer
22. Military pride
23. South Dakota
24. IM'ing
25. Choc covered raisins
26. sleepovers with my nieces
27. Sex and the City
28. Red wine
29. Fishing
30. laying on a blanket in the summer
31. the way my feet feel in the sand
32. Christmas photo cards
33. text mai
34. day dreaming of adopting
35. singing happy birthday to someone
36. holding a newborn
37. my red soft couch blanket
38. Golden Girls
39. raking leaves in the fall
40. my neighborhood
41. Target
42. Coors light
43. being a good friend
44. wedge sandals
45. the ocean
46. Cheeseburgers
47. getting jammies on
48. clear nights when you can see the stars
49. dark movie theaters
50. bar hoping in Stillwater
51. pedicures
52. the smell of Hawaii when you first get off the plane
53. wearing dresses
54. being independent
55. picking Sierra up from school
56. having the windows open
57. Chick flicks
58. Kaitlyn's foot rubs
59. Watching Nancy Grace yell at guests
60. going for walks
61. the smell of clean laundry
62. beef jerky
63. reading blogs
64. my hair
65. Live music
66. Anderson Cooper
68. Reading
69. hiking
70. BBQ's
71. my mom's cooking
72. New York City
73. my house on Longfellow
74. Costco
75. my dad's hugs
76. shopping
77. Ponytail holders
78. Propel drop-ins
79. Childhood memories
80. knowing my mom would do anything for me
81. ICE cold water
82. knowing my nieces & nephew feel as loved I as did growing up
83. giving Christmas gifts
84. the very first snowfall of the winter
85. crickets in August
86. Cooking
87. Sunday dinner
88. Listening to James Taylor
88. Staying home on a weekend night
89. mascara
90. Getting mail
91. going through old pictures when family visits
92. Half Lemon-aide half ice tea
93. someone playing with my hair
94. reality tv
95. the fact that I'm still friends with a lot of the same people since high school
96. putting a fruit roll-up on my finger and sucking it like a sucker
97. hairspray
98. sitting in my parents living room yapping about nothing
99. talking on the phone while driving
100.country music
I DID IT! And it as easy.
1. My family
2. The smell of summer
3. George Lopez
4. Cold bed sheets
5. crawling into bed at night
6. my computer
7. my upright fan
8. going to a movie
9. Larry King live
10. my red couch
11.Kirkland Vitarain water
12. being single
13. my iphone
14. pictures of my parents
15. getting a phone call/text from Aaron
16. Ikea picture frames
17. remote controls
18. Pears
19. Popcorn
20. my Elantra
21. Margaritas in the summer
22. Military pride
23. South Dakota
24. IM'ing
25. Choc covered raisins
26. sleepovers with my nieces
27. Sex and the City
28. Red wine
29. Fishing
30. laying on a blanket in the summer
31. the way my feet feel in the sand
32. Christmas photo cards
33. text mai
34. day dreaming of adopting
35. singing happy birthday to someone
36. holding a newborn
37. my red soft couch blanket
38. Golden Girls
39. raking leaves in the fall
40. my neighborhood
41. Target
42. Coors light
43. being a good friend
44. wedge sandals
45. the ocean
46. Cheeseburgers
47. getting jammies on
48. clear nights when you can see the stars
49. dark movie theaters
50. bar hoping in Stillwater
51. pedicures
52. the smell of Hawaii when you first get off the plane
53. wearing dresses
54. being independent
55. picking Sierra up from school
56. having the windows open
57. Chick flicks
58. Kaitlyn's foot rubs
59. Watching Nancy Grace yell at guests
60. going for walks
61. the smell of clean laundry
62. beef jerky
63. reading blogs
64. my hair
65. Live music
66. Anderson Cooper
68. Reading
69. hiking
70. BBQ's
71. my mom's cooking
72. New York City
73. my house on Longfellow
74. Costco
75. my dad's hugs
76. shopping
77. Ponytail holders
78. Propel drop-ins
79. Childhood memories
80. knowing my mom would do anything for me
81. ICE cold water
82. knowing my nieces & nephew feel as loved I as did growing up
83. giving Christmas gifts
84. the very first snowfall of the winter
85. crickets in August
86. Cooking
87. Sunday dinner
88. Listening to James Taylor
88. Staying home on a weekend night
89. mascara
90. Getting mail
91. going through old pictures when family visits
92. Half Lemon-aide half ice tea
93. someone playing with my hair
94. reality tv
95. the fact that I'm still friends with a lot of the same people since high school
96. putting a fruit roll-up on my finger and sucking it like a sucker
97. hairspray
98. sitting in my parents living room yapping about nothing
99. talking on the phone while driving
100.country music
I DID IT! And it as easy.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Loss
Yesterday my mom lost her sister. She lived in FL and we hadn't seen her in a few years. I know my mom is hurting because of that.
We booked our flights when we got the news that there was no hope as we wanted to be there with my cousins as they turned off the machines. We didn't make it. Our hearts broke as we canceled flights to FL and started to make other arrangements to gather here in MN as this is where she wanted her final resting place to be. Her husband, my uncle, died much to young at the age of 40 and she will be laid to rest next to him and across from her parents (my grandparents). Sad sad times. I do take some comfort knowing that all my family will be flying home to Minnesota. I LOVE spending time with my family, I just wish it were different reasons .
Losing my aunt suddenly has made me want to cling to my family tell them how much I love them. You just never know...
We booked our flights when we got the news that there was no hope as we wanted to be there with my cousins as they turned off the machines. We didn't make it. Our hearts broke as we canceled flights to FL and started to make other arrangements to gather here in MN as this is where she wanted her final resting place to be. Her husband, my uncle, died much to young at the age of 40 and she will be laid to rest next to him and across from her parents (my grandparents). Sad sad times. I do take some comfort knowing that all my family will be flying home to Minnesota. I LOVE spending time with my family, I just wish it were different reasons .
Losing my aunt suddenly has made me want to cling to my family tell them how much I love them. You just never know...
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Weekend's over
I had a great weekend. I got to see high school friends that I hadn't seen in over 5 years. We're planning our 15 year reunion (did I just say 15 years!!!!!???) at Stella's in uptown in October. We really got hooked up and it should be a fun time.
Friday I received some news that had been terrorizing me for the part 7 months. I wish I could say I feel better, but maybe in time...
One funny thing happened while we were having our reunion meeting at Stella's. I looked over and saw my ex-brother-in-law on a date. Awkward. :)
Im really looking forward to having dinner with Charlotte and her parents tomorrow night. I love Stillwater when the weathers nice and it will be nice to chat with Char about wedding stuff.
Alright, I'm off to watch Army Wives- love that show.
Friday I received some news that had been terrorizing me for the part 7 months. I wish I could say I feel better, but maybe in time...
One funny thing happened while we were having our reunion meeting at Stella's. I looked over and saw my ex-brother-in-law on a date. Awkward. :)
Im really looking forward to having dinner with Charlotte and her parents tomorrow night. I love Stillwater when the weathers nice and it will be nice to chat with Char about wedding stuff.
Alright, I'm off to watch Army Wives- love that show.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Tuesday
I've been so restless lately, I really hate this feeling. Do you ever feel like talking to someone but you have nothing to say? Sigh... please pray this fog lifts soon. I need a change.
I went over to Angie's house this morning for coffee and ended up staying all day and was even invited to stay for dinner. How nice is that?! I love not thinking about dinner. Tonight my dinner was going to be a pear and a glass of wine. Instead I got a home cooked dinner- yum. Thanks, Ang.
I spoke to the travel agent today to discuss Charlotte & Aaron's wedding. I'm really getting excited. I wasn't too excited to hear that because I'm a 'Single' I would have to pay almost $1000 more than if I were sharing a room with someone. That is a lot of money. Either i have to find a man FAST or pray Michelle wants to bunk together. Fingers crossed.
Thoughts of the day:
Bridesmaid dresses
Ex-boyfriend is a lunatic
Mexico
Jobs
80 degrees on Thursday
This wine I'm drinking is bad
So happy I found my pink hairband
I went over to Angie's house this morning for coffee and ended up staying all day and was even invited to stay for dinner. How nice is that?! I love not thinking about dinner. Tonight my dinner was going to be a pear and a glass of wine. Instead I got a home cooked dinner- yum. Thanks, Ang.
I spoke to the travel agent today to discuss Charlotte & Aaron's wedding. I'm really getting excited. I wasn't too excited to hear that because I'm a 'Single' I would have to pay almost $1000 more than if I were sharing a room with someone. That is a lot of money. Either i have to find a man FAST or pray Michelle wants to bunk together. Fingers crossed.
Thoughts of the day:
Bridesmaid dresses
Ex-boyfriend is a lunatic
Mexico
Jobs
80 degrees on Thursday
This wine I'm drinking is bad
So happy I found my pink hairband
Monday, April 12, 2010
Let's try this again...
Today someone told me "Stop being a victim" OUCH. I've never thought about that before. Do I whine? Ish, there is nothing appealing nor attractive about whining. I love hearing things about myself (good or bad) from other people. Guess its time to start working on that.
The weekend went so fast. Of course I did nothing too fun or crazy, Friday I went to the Miley Cyrus movie & Saturday eve I spent a few hours over at Jessica's house. I was home by 10pm and in bed by 11pm-CRAZY times. I'm really hoping to go out this weekend. Now that the weather is getting warm it makes me want to be out having beers and looking at attractive men.
I thought I'd post a few goals. These are things that I want to achieve BEFORE summer.
* Loose 15 more pounds.
* Wear strapless shirt/dress without arm chub popping out on the sides.
* Find job (oops, that should be #1)
* Stop being victim
* Grow hair longer
* Buy new couch
* Do more for myself
* Say no more
* Gossip less
* Eat better
* Drink more water
* Be more honest
Thats not a lot, right? Yeah, its a lot. Im sure there are a lot more, these are just on my mind today.
Im happy that my friend Charlotte is doing a blog now, its inspired me to get back into mine. I read so many blogs daily, I just think sometimes my life is not that interesting- but we'll see.
The weekend went so fast. Of course I did nothing too fun or crazy, Friday I went to the Miley Cyrus movie & Saturday eve I spent a few hours over at Jessica's house. I was home by 10pm and in bed by 11pm-CRAZY times. I'm really hoping to go out this weekend. Now that the weather is getting warm it makes me want to be out having beers and looking at attractive men.
I thought I'd post a few goals. These are things that I want to achieve BEFORE summer.
* Loose 15 more pounds.
* Wear strapless shirt/dress without arm chub popping out on the sides.
* Find job (oops, that should be #1)
* Stop being victim
* Grow hair longer
* Buy new couch
* Do more for myself
* Say no more
* Gossip less
* Eat better
* Drink more water
* Be more honest
Thats not a lot, right? Yeah, its a lot. Im sure there are a lot more, these are just on my mind today.
Im happy that my friend Charlotte is doing a blog now, its inspired me to get back into mine. I read so many blogs daily, I just think sometimes my life is not that interesting- but we'll see.
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